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I guess it's my time to have the withdrawal symptoms. Hehe... Don't get me wrong. I don't regret leaving PS. Just allow me to write about it while I'm on my mini-vacation before I go to my new work on Thursday.
So, what do I miss/will miss in PS?
-My Friends-
No brainer. I'll miss my friends of course. They're the reason why I
stayed for a long time anyway. And now that most of them have left the
company as well, we'll just find means to stay in contact.
-Smationary-
We had formed a lot of words and would have formed a lot more if we did
not lose Spark access. But hey, even just with spam e-mails we were
still able to create words.
-Yellow Cab and Starbucks Downstairs-
There's a nearby Starbucks in my new office, but you have to walk some
distance. And the nearest Yellow Cab is in front of Madrigal Business
Park, which is a jeepney ride away.
-Asado Roll of My Teahouse-
I love that asado roll! Where do they buy it?
-One-peso Coffee/Milo From The Vendo-
I don't know the arrangements in the pantry of my new office. I am yet to know...
-Smoking Area/Patio-
I don't smoke but Gem and I take our coffee breaks there when we were
in GY with TNC, and every morning we used to accompany Jeff while he
smokes there.
-Ice Age Room & Manila Room-
These rooms are witness to the many meetings of ET and the pre-shifts and post-shifts of ETM 19's nesting.
-Production Logs and Sales Tracker-
I learned so much about Excel while I was in PS.
-Walking Along Ayala Avenue-
Now, I'll be walking along Alabang-Zapote Road =|
-Street foods in Front of the Office-
Fishballs, squidballs, tukneneng, corn and green mangoes... Haysh.
-ET's Pansit and Pichi-pichi-
Those were the days...
-My Crushes-
The supe from another account, and my OIC in telesales, Chris Alesna.
Oh well, at least I was able to say goodbye to Chris. Haha.
That's what I can think of right now, but maybe later I'll be able to think
of more. Hehe.
and were only allowed to bring five things, what would those be?
A Big Cooler Full Of Food and Drinks
Necessities first before sentiments. How would I survive without food and water??? And yeah, it should contain chocolates and apple juice as well!
Matches
I'll use the matches to create fire, cook food, light up stuff, and when I get bored, make a matchstick tower.
My Book Collection
I
love my books so much, I don't want to be parted from them. And since
I'll have lots of time to spare, I'll be able to read them cover to
cover.
My Scrapbooks
I love making scrapbooks. When I stopped writing on diaries, my
scrapbooks served us documentation of my life. So, when I got nothing
to do in that desert island and missing everyone else, I'll just look
at my scrapbooks.
Pen and Paper
Who said that I'd stop writing just because I'm in a desert island? Of
course not. Though I'm not sure what will be inspiring about being in a
desert island... Hmm...
I am annoyed whenever I try to get my NBI clearance because I don't get it right away because I always have a hit, and the thing is it's not because there is a person out there who has the same name as mine, but because of a DOST scholarship that I did not even use.
Because of being eligible for a DOST scholarship in college I have "tags" in the DFA, the Bureau of Immigration, and whatever government agency that has something to do with leaving this freaking country.
I've secured my clearances from DOST way back when I got hired in PS, which was like almost three years ago, just so that I won't have any problems anymore.
When I went to Burbank in 2006, I actually brought all my papers/clearances just in case I get held up by Immigration. I heard stories from my friends, that had the same issue as mine, that they go through some hassles because people from Immigration would tell them that they have a travel ban, etc, etc. But I didn't have any problem when I went to the U.S., so I thought maybe they've finally updated their databases and cleared me.
But apparently, for the love of God, NBI is not updated. I wouldn't fret much if the NBI satellite office in Muntinlupa was still in the city hall, which is walking distance from us, and I can pick it up on my way to wherever, but now it's in Tunasan and I have to spend for fare and I have to go OUT of my way to pick it up.
It's just annoying that that piece of paper has given me so much trouble. And that's just for local employment, what more if I needed it for employment abroad. =|
***For the benefit of those whose inboxes are full and for those already out of PS***
This is it, I'm leaving.
This may seem immediate and all of a sudden, but the thought of leaving has been with me for quite some time now. I just always had a reason to stay, something/s hold me back. But now, I had finally ran out of reasons to stay.
I'd like to thank you all for all the memories and experiences you shared with me during my stay in PS. Nothing will compare to that.
To my supervisors, thank you so much for all the guidance and support that you had given me. To Mommy Chris and Bossing Raymond, thank you for believing in me. To Boss Liz, thank you for all the guidance, support, patience and understanding. To Inay Fristine and Inay Ces, thank you for being ET's mother and for always being there for us through hell and back. Inay Fristine, thank you for your support during my "darkest days" in TNC. I would have been long gone from PS if not for you. Inay Ces, thank you for being with us ET peeps since day one and thank you for continually being our "Inay" even if us, your kids, had been dispersed not just into different accounts but in different companies.
To my NHO batchmates, Lanz, Tethel, Nimfz and Coco, best wishes to all of you who are left.
To my WSA friends , thank you for all the fun times. I haven't been down there for a long time but I hope you're all doing well and will be doing well.
To ETM 19, batchmates, trainers, mentors, the classroom training and nesting was so fun. I enjoyed being with you guys, thank you for that. Good luck on your sales.
To my ET Family and other TNC friends, thank you for the wonderful memories. I spent most of my PS life in TNC and I learned a lot there. To my family outside my home--ET peeps--we've been through a lot and I'm so thankful for the bond that we had formed. Please do invite me if there will be a TNC or ET outing that I'm not the organizer.
To my OT Addicts (aka Spammers) friends, I don't know if you have any idea how much I love you guys. I'm very, very grateful that I have known you. Thank you for the themed Spark conferences that produced the Smationary and our code names and pet names. Thank you for our lunches together that made people in the pantry leave because we're too noisy. Thank you for the Zambalea moments and the Laguna escapade. Thanks for our stints in Starbucks, Yellow Cab and Max's. Thank you for the tons of pictures that fill my Friendster profile and Multiply albums. Thank you for the fact that we're always there for each other despite the odds. Thank you so much for the friendship. To the ones who left before me: Ly, Kaka, Iris, Sam, Kim and Enzo - I'm joining the club. Thanks for reminding me that everything will be fine. To those who are left: Ivan, Gem, Shai and Carla - good luck in whatever your next moves will be.
I don't want to say goodbye because I don't want it to be goodbye. I hope to see you guys around. I'll just be in the south until I finally decide where on earth other than the Philippines do I want to be.
Good luck to each one of you. God bless!
Soy Sauce + Chili Sauce and Everything
There was a phase in my life that I got really addicted to chili sauce. Lunch at the office is incomplete if I don't have the soy sauce-chili sauce combo on my viand or in my rice. I bought some stash of chili sauce for me to have at home as well.
Coke and Chocolate
If you eat something sweet and you drink Coke, the taste of Coke becomes weird. But even though that happens I still eat chocolate while drinking Coke.
Tofiluk and Coffee
It's not really a weird combination, but it's the habit that's kind of weird. I don't drink hot coffee a lot. I prefer iced coffee. But since I've been in the graveyard shift for quite some time I had to tolerate hot coffee because there's no available iced/cold coffee in the vendo at the pantry. I think coffee is more bitter when it's hot, so I need chocolate to neutralize the bitterness. Yeah, it has to be Tofiluk. I dunno why.
***When the category for Sunday Scribbles is food, I end up not writing a lot. Anyway, the stuff I eat are normal, I guess. Haha. I'm not experimental when it comes to food. ***
I have several nicknames. I have "name" within a certain group of people.
Anne - only family members call me Anne. I don't want other people calling me Anne unless I told them to, and the only people I tell to call me Anne are boyfriends (and when we split up, they revert back to calling me with my real nickname Ma-Anne. It's sort of automatic)
Ma-Anne/Maan - most of my friends call me this. This is the nickname I used in school and I grew up with.
Marie - almost all TNC people and Expedia people use this to call me. I'm only Marie inside PS. It actually started as a mistake. My name tent in NHO showed Marie, I don't know why. My job offer indicated Ma-Anne. Whoever's mistake that was, I'll never know. Anyway, I just stuck with the name to avoid confusion from the other Maans in PS.
Mescobar - it's the thing in Cendant, people calling people by their NT login, and it's not even the first letter of one's first name and the last name, it's really pronouncing the whole thing as if it's one word ("mes-co-bar")
Amrie - one of the names that was created because of the Sam Syndrome of the OT Addicts. They rarely use this though compared to my other nickname from them.
Marue - the other name that was a product of Sam Syndrome. This has become my official name in our barkada. So, you'll hear the OT addicts shouting "Marue, Marue, Marue" to call me. Most of their text messages start with "Marue!" Other ET peeps even got used to calling me by this name because they hear it a lot. There was someone from NPR who actually thought Marue was my real name. I have adopted this nickname so much and it's been dear to me because of the people who use it to call me.
I just thought about names because a friend of mine and I were talking about how our barkada likes to give/use pet names. We've invented tons already and each name has become special because it somehow displays the dynamics of our relationship. I'm just missing my friends...
Got this one from Tim:
Instructions:
- Go to IMDb
- Pick out 10 movies you like
- Pick out 4 plots keywords for each
- Post them and have your friends guess
1. Children, Laid-off, Unconventional, Education
2. Redneck, South, Divorce, New York
3. Proposal, Girlfriends, Brides, Birthday
4. Journalist, High School, Cool, Geek
5. Sisters, Sorcery, Death, Curse
6. Sorority, L.A., Harvard, Blonde
7. Fairytale, New York, Storybook, Singing
8. Apartment, Doctor, Architect, Workaholic
9. Internet, Princeton, Nomad, Text
10. Pop Star, Holography, Band, Individuality
I usually say that writing is my first love, but I should correct myself. Writing is my greatest love but dancing is my first love.
I used to dance a lot in elementary and high school. I like the P.E. classes that involves dancing whether it be folk dance, ballroom dancing or cheerdancing.
It's been a long time since I danced a whole choreographed number though. It's not that I stopped dancing because I got fed up with it. I just don't have the opportunity to.
I don't go to clubs and bars, so most of the dancing I do is dancing along the songs that friends sing in videokes and i need a beer though to work it out. I'm not as "not-so-shy" as some of my friends who can do it without the beer. Haha.
Just thought about it because I've been watching dance movies all
afternoon and been following some of their moves and dancing to the
tunes they play. It's quite tiring especially when
I watched "Honey" because there isn't much dialogue and there's a bunch of music. But I enjoyed a lot. ^^;
I wish that someday I could find my permanent dance partner. Men are supposed to lead in a dance but I haven't found a guy with a routine I'd like to follow.
Other than that analogy that came out of no where, I'd like to add another thing that will come out of nowhere... it would be lovely to find someone who share my passions.
BUT until I find that one, I'll just enjoy dancing on my own. ^^;
Quotable Quote from Step Up:
"If you want to be with somebody who doesn't appreciate what a great
thing he has that's 100 percent your business. But I just thought
you're smart enough to know you deserve better."
Sunday Scribbles for March 23, 2008
FILM: FAVORITE QUOTES
Harry Burns (Billy Crystal): I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
Practical Magic (1998)
Sally Owens (Sandra Bullock): Sometimes I feel like there's a hole inside of me, an emptiness that at times seems to burn. I think if you lifted my heart to your ear, you could probably hear the ocean. The moon tonight, there's a circle around it. Sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night, wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing... I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen. I don't know. Maybe I had my happiness. I don't want to believe it but, there is no man, Gilly. Only that moon.
Practical Magic (1998)
Sally Owens (Sandra Bullock): Can love really travel back in time and heal a broken heart?
Practical Magic (1998)
Young Sally Owens (Camilla Belle): The guy I dreamed of doesn't exist. And if he doesn't exist, I'll never die of a broken heart.
Never Been Kissed (1999)
Josie Geller (Drew Barrymore): You know, Adelie penguins spend their whole lives looking for that one other penguin and when they meet them, they know. And they spend the rest of their lives together.
Never Been Kissed (1999)
Josie Geller (Drew Barrymore): That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.
The Bachelor (1999)
Priest (James Cromwell): It's a wonderful thing, as time goes by, to be with someone who looks into your face, when you've gotten old, and still sees what you think you look like.
The Bachelor (1999)
Jimmie Shannon (Chris O'Donnell): I'm not interested in your goddamn vagina, all right? I just want to marry you!
Legally Blonde (2001)
Elle Woods (Reese Witherspoon): I just don't think that Brooke could've done this. Exercise gives you endorphins. Endorphins make you happy. Happy people just don't shoot their husbands, they just don't.
Sweet Home Alabama (2002)
Melanie Carmichael (Reese Witherspoon): The truth is I gave my heart away a long time ago, my whole heart, and I never really got it back.
Sweet Home Alabama (2002)
Jake Perry (Josh Lucas): Nobody finds their soul mate when they're ten. I mean, where's the fun in that, right?
A Cinderella Story (2004)
Sam's Dad (Whip Hubley): Fairy tales aren't just about finding handsome princes. They're about fulfilling your dreams and about standing up for what you believe in.
Pixel Perfect (2004)
Xander (Brett Cullen): Silicon is a great thing, you can mold it into glass or turn it into microchips. But it's not alive. If you try to look for perfection in living people, you'll end up having more breakfasts alone.
Just Like Heaven (2005)
Jack Houriskey (Donal Logue): God made alcohol as a social lubricant. To make men brave, and to make women loose.
***Okay, shoot me. I have a lot of favorite quotes, I'm into chick flicks and I love Reese Witherspoon...***
My LSS is still "That's What You Get" by Paramore, hence the title of this post is a line from that song.
I'm not hurting as much as I've been since last, last Saturday, but I am seeing a lot of people who are hurting and/or confused. It's difficult to give advice to hurt and confused people when you yourself are just getting over the hurt and confusion. But let this piece be a comment/reply on all the blog posts about losing someone/being stupid because of loving someone/fighting for someone you love that I've read.
We do stupid things because of love, so people who don't want to do something stupid avoid love or at least avoid talking about love or their feelings so that they don't have to let other people know that they themselves had done foolish acts. We all have a story to tell. Just these past few days, I have read a lot about those stories. I don't know if I'll be happy because I am not alone or if I'll be sad because we're too many.
A friend of mine posted a collection of quotes about the ironies and pains of love. A lot of them are very true, even though you wish they weren't. I've collected a lot of sayings about that topic along my journey in life. I've even created some of my own...
Anyway, so here is more verbal diarrhea on my thoughts on this topic... This is for people who lost someone they love or have unrequited love...
First, as I've said to Nats, just because you love someone, it doesn't mean you have to be with them... And he's reply to me that I will share to all of you and I recommend as well, (evil smile) "totoong hindi kailangang kayo o mahal ka rin niya para mahalin ang isang tao... basta kapag nalilito ka na at hindi mo na alam, iinom mo na lang ng... BEER." Sometimes it may call for a San Mig Light and for heavier issues, STRONG ICE. Hehe...
Anyway, kidding aside...
As I've said before, I hate the phrase "you deserve someone better" even if it's very, very, very true. You won't be able to see the worth of that phrase when you are in love with someone who doesn't deserve you because the point of loving anyway is giving love unconditionally. You don't require the person you love to be something in order for you to love him/her. You don't require that person to be someone who deserves you before you give your heart to him/her. I don't use the phrase "you deserve someone better" to my friends because I know what it feels when you hear it. It's just like "I told you so" which is a phrase that I know a lot of us, if not all, doesn't want to hear.
But as dreadful as "you deserve someone better" is to hear, we should be open to the fact that there really is someone out there, other than the person whom we love and had hurt us, that we can love and maybe even love us back. Yes, we can't chose someone we love, but it doesn't mean we cannot love again.
I love Lara Fabian's song "I Will Love Again" because it's true. As long as our heart is beating we can love again. As the song puts it, "even if it takes a life time, I will love again." Yes, it's difficult, really difficult, and it may take a long time but it can happen. We just have to be open.
You don't stop loving a person just because the person has stopped loving you or because he/she cannot love you in the way you want him/her to, but you'll be able to love someone else more. Feelings don't die (even if most people say they do) but they only fade or move into the back to give room for new feelings. The process takes time and hurts a lot, but you'll live through it. ^^;
So, as Ate C always tell us, "let go and let God".
Cheers to happiness! (we'll eventually get it ^^;)
